Well its official, I am no longer a student anymore sad times. Im at home now, back in Cardiff, back alot sooner than planned due to reasons I wont go into but yeah. It sucks, I wanted to spend a few weeks with my boyfriend back at uni but yeah, nevermind. It will suck this summer hardly seeing him when Im used to seeing him everysingle day, it really hurts And as the future is so unpredictable right now, who knows when Im going to see him next, I hate it. But all my main focus now is to get a job, not coz i want a career its more for the fact of getting money so me and him can get a place together I think the plan is, whoever gets a job first the other one moves there too and then take it from there seeing as tho companies seem to be in simular parts of the country. We'll see.

Its a sad experience, leaving uni that is, not Middlesbrough coz its a crap hole, but just the life in general, all the freedom and stuff. You feel a bit lost, like a part of your life has ended and youll never get it back , I dont know if its a good thing or bad. The good thing is now you dont have deadlines and you can do what you want, but then student life was fun too, going to lectures meeting new friends and learning new things all the time. It was cool, some of it was bad, but mostly it was good. Ive grown up alot, and watched everyone around me grow up to. Its weird looking back on how we all were in the first year and now look at us, all adult and stuff lol I think its weird that you go from friends to other friends some times, I mean in the fist year I had a different group of friends than in my last, and im glad i got a mixture of both. First year was amazing, for messing around and going out all the time. Second year was a bitch coz loads of crap happened, and third year was the most productive. Im sad that I didnt get to meet the people Ive got to know in my final year in the first year really, coz theyve really been cool and motivated me alot so thank you for that. I just wanna say to all the Teessiders that I hope everything works out the way you want it to in life, and I hope all your dreams come true. Your a talented bunch so never give up

I guess now for me the plan is to do another showreel (coz I accidently deleted mine) and send it to companies and see what happens. Its pointless spending 6 more months trying to do more stuff and then sending it, I might aswell send what I got and see if anything comes of it. Fair enough if it doesnt THEN i will do some more things, which Im sure I will have to lol Also Im having my bedroom re decorated coz gonna have to sort out all my crap, and yeah I have alot of it. Its gonna be hard this summer if I dont get a job coz I want something to do, or somewhere to go, like a different city or something a fresh start. But Im not gonna get my hopes up, all I can do is try. And the short term future seems really dull not having my boyfriend around to keep me smiling, its no fun without him.

Anyway Good luck everybody! And see you all at graduation. Its been a pleasure being in the class of 2008 lol