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Thought Id update my journal now seeing as though I got my degree results this morning. I am absolutly over the moon that I got a first class honours! I cant believe it, I didnt think I would ever get a first at all in a million years, and I have and im really happy! My boyfriend also got a first so im so proud of him too, and it just shows that hard work does pay off! Hopefully this opens up some doors for us now for the future lol

Im still waiting to hear back about a job opportunity next week sometime, so I dont wanna say too much about that at the moment. Im working on some character designs and just practising drawing things over and over to get better and anatomy and stuff and exploring new things at the moment. Ill try and post some stuff soon! Might work on some new tattoo designs, coz I wanna get one soon lol I got my navel pierced two days ago too .. hurts to sit down lol

Anyway just wanted to share my excitement, not to rub it in or anything, just wanted to shout it from the rooftops. Hope evereyone else I know at uni did good too!!! lol

xxx

Well, this has been a strange kind of week so far. Last week I did basically nothing but chilling with my boyfriend at his house, not worrying about anything, but each time it makes me more determined to get a good job and have a steady income so we can get a flat and be happy

After applying to a number of 2d animation jobs, and with no success, emailing various people, things werent looking good. But earlier this week I kinda landed myself a bit of freelance work, storyboarding and animating (wasnt gonna be paid to begin with). However faced with the task I did indeed have an epiphany. It suddenly occured to me that I didnt wanna do this kind of thing, and that sounds really selfish that i got a kind of job and then didnt want it, but I cant help it. It doesnt make me happy im sad to say, and I clearly dont have the passion for animation as I should. I have come to conclusion that character design or designing in general FOR animation is what I wanna do. The kinda stuff I did for my FMP, designing characters, doing design bibles , props, background, that kind of thing, I love it. But I dont feel that my degree has been a waste, because by doing an animation degree I know how it all works, and have learnt how to design for the industry and the restrictions, such as will it animate etc. But the thing that scares me the most if I go down this field is the fact it seems to be mostly freelance work, designing things. I know you can land yourself a nice 9-5 character designer job for a company, and Id love that but I dunno what the chances of that is. I just need to build up my portfolio and broaden my style, but designing for animation seems the be the thing for me.

Before when I thought about it, I felt pressured that I had to be an animator and get an animation job because I have an animation degree, But I feel animating isnt my strongest point. I have become better this year but thats with an insane amount of effort and tears to reach that, Which isnt good, thats no fun for me. Where as design is, and its only now I reaise that, and I realise that theres a furture for me in that as Ive been told by numerous people in the industry and teachers and lots of people that theres some talent there. So im gonna continue down that route. I dont really want to do animation for the sake of it and not be happy and regret it.

I hope I am making the right decison lol Got some module feedback today from Uni which turned out good! Well done girls team one woo! Hope everyone did good on theirs too! Counting down the days to judgement day tho, scary stuff.

Anyways, thanks to everyone thats had a look on my website and left comments, im glad it appeals and looks nice lol

xxx

Hi

Just a quick journal entry to say that my website is now online if you would like to have a look!

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1. Do you like animals?
Some animals yes

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Yeah

3. Are you athletic?
Id have to say no, I used to swim alot and can swim well i think, but I dont like doing any other physical activity, apart from a fitness dvd now and again but thats only because people cant see how stupid i look lol

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
um, i wouldnt say thin, and i wouldnt say fat, maybe more thin, thin and curvy? coz im not a stick insect i look like a woman should so ive been told lol curvy hips and all the rest of it, but im pretty small, and curvy can be mistaken for 'fat' by some people, i dunno

5. How much do you weigh?
7 stone 11 or 10 pounds i think

6. What's your height?
a crappy 5ft

7. Shoe size?
3 or 4

8. Are you emo, chav or what?
I dont really think u should put people into a category, but people do generalise i guess, so out of those , id say emo, but im not that either, but i wear alternative stuff and listen to 'emo' bands, i dunno kinda rocky and individual at the same time id say

10. How old are you?
21

11. When is your birthday?
October 20th

12. Do you like to receive gift art?
Never got one so no

13. Are you sociable?
Not to begin with, well online I am, but in person I can be shy, it takes a good while for me to be myself unless im really comfortable with someone

14. Do you have many friends?
A few

15. What's your race?
night elf.. nah um....... im white and i class myself as welsh not british, WELSH

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
depends who to, I dont like having to phone companies and stuff, i hate that or answering the phone if its someone random, yeh i dont like it

17. Are you single or taken?
taken

18. Do you eat meat?
Only chikcen and fish, but thats only because I dont really like any other meat

19. Are you paranoid?
yeah alot

20. Do you read a lot?
not really

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
Mainly rock music, emo bands, metal bands, alot of stuff within the rock genre, but i can listen to some dance music and the ocassional pop song and i like musicals, i dont no why, but i like those types of songs lol

22. Do you play any instruments?
I have a guitar, but i cant play it lol and its pretty naff, but i play piano, well taught myself

23. How long have you been drawing?
since the beginning of my life, yeh i came out of my mum with a pencil and sketcbook i did. Nah, i dunno very young, i remember first day or nursey i was crying for my mum and then was given a paint brush and was happy. Dunno i was always drawing even when i sprained my wrist i was drawing with it an hour later

24. What's the meaning of life?
I dont know. I think ive wasted alot of mine worying about crap and not taking chances and living life to the fullest, which is a shame. But now i dont want to do that, i wanna get out there and live, but its hard when u have no money or job at the moment. But i guess everyones life has a different meaning, i think its weir that if u never met certain ppl, that ur life would be completly diferent, and how ppl affect you and how u turn out. thats really amazing

25. Now tag five of your friends! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal.
whoever wants to

Thought it was about time for an update. Things havent been going too well latley for me, been going through some personal things but that seems to have sorted itself out now, my fault for overracting over something so stupid it doesnt even matter. Meh, i lost 3 pounds this week tho from worrying and losing my appetite lol anyway My boyfriend came to Cardiff today after not seeing him for 10 days which was cool, needed that Going to his for a week on monday so yay.

And im annoyed about serveral things. One, I have applied to two 2D animator jobs in cardiff, and no, both comapnies havent got back to me, so unno if they are just busy, and take froever to get back, (coz one of them took 3 weeks to get back to me before) or theyre just not interested. I might just send them my showree via post and hassle them even further and see if i get anyway lol Alos my website still isnt working!! after having many email converstions with their customer servies who are awesome, I have discovered its either my internet, or my pc, coz i just cant upload anything to it. My boyf tested it, and he cud upload fine, so ill take my website bits and bobs to his next week so it should be up and running next week yay!

I also have a new phone, its so weird, one of those LG Viewty's. So complicted to use, but ill get used to it i hope.

ALSO my favouritest band ever, Funeral for a friend have just released 2 new songs so im excited coz there so cool yay

So i guess from being really low on several aspects of my life, I guess things can only get better!... I hope